The Human Experience - Essay
By: Matthew Canning
“Harboring too much unneeded stress,
Where sins are forgiven and secrets confessed
hidden messages found within this test
clouds cover the sky, the calm before the storm
Where mothers and fathers die, children will be born
flowers eventually wilt and trees hibernate
our actions define our fates.”
Actions speak louder than any words.
It doesn't seem like much has changed over the years. More people deemed as criminals as the clock continues to click away at the seconds, people forgetting that this life is a treasure. A gem to be protected. Often the distractions around us sweep us up into a storm of confusion. Monetary gain and personal profit has become the center of man's desire. Personal greed for one's justification is clearly a bad president and an even worse mentality for our children to witness, or worse to become involved with. Personal gain for ones own family however changes that tide, the fine line as who does not want the best for their family and loved ones?
I can only speak on behalf of myself when I say that for being a nation comprised of a majority of Christians many have forgotten the true meaning and purpose of the gospels. Not being religious myself but openly spiritual I can say with utmost certainty whether the god of the bible is real or not, the message found within those scriptures cut at the very core of our many values in which we hold and practice today. There is a question I would like to pose to those faithful and believers, If we are all brothers and sisters on this tiny blue planet we call home, earth, and Mother, such an honorable title we bestow to a place that provides to us everything we need to survive. Why is it that we continue to kill our brothers, allow our children in third world countries and here at home to starve while our restaurants toss out half ate meals into a back ally dumpster, only to fill another landfill, another wound within our planet's crust.
You listen to the same liars and manipulators who tell you there is simply not enough room or not enough resources to help our own, let alone help another. Millions and more are homeless throughout the world. We all cry, we all bleed and suffer and ultimately we will all perish. We are in fact the same to the extent that our diversity comes from our own personal beliefs. What we feel is right and what is also wrong. You can argue and debate your ideologies until you are blue in the face and still your opposition will stand firm in their own faith. You are then left with but two options, either fight or concede to the fact their mind has made a choice, closed and ended there. Fighting usually only solidifies and strengthens one's view on the subject at hand.
Is it possible to talk down a trigger happy gunman? Peace is easy to say, the word can roll from your tongue like a childhood memory of a utopia society. Yet the act of peace becomes a tug a war game of who gives in the most, to allow the violence to stop. What if you had to give up nothing more than your own pride to accomplish the dream of a peaceful society? What if all you had to do was show one single act of kindness to your fellow man? It was once said that the act of giving returns more than that of receiving. This dream may seem impossible, yet when you give it some thought, this dream becomes more practical than the constant senseless killings of our own brothers and sisters, our mothers and fathers. The road down this dream would take no where near as long to achieve then our own regression and depression has lasted.
A lord of fools, who plays the jester. Where bitterness resides and only starts to fester.
This has become my solitude, from an endless war it's my only refuge.
Trapped, with no hope of any rescue.”
“When Insanity beckons, how will you answer the call. On top of a ledge will you jump or fall?
Killed everything you tried to force, Ignorance never changes it's course
A vampyre hiding within the sheep's skin. When there is no faith it always easy to give in
Leave me to my own, Leaving me to be alone
and this has become my solitude.”
To question blindly without following.
Have we forgotten how to take care of our own? So attached to the umbilical cord that has become our very complacency. Are we so quick to jump or grovel for the scraps left on the table? Already hand picked by pockets of the greedy. Waiting in a breadline desperately wanting to hear news of blue skies ahead, yet we continue to allow others to speak on the behalf of others. The same voice which later becomes slurred as the cocktail of lies flush through their veins. Even when they face the angry mob, there sins are resolved behind closed doors and classified briefings.
No man, woman, or child can speak on my behalf, to assume such notion implies to me that I am property for such dealings and actions. I may have unknowingly been born a slave into a broken system, yet as an adult I redeem my sovereignty, my rights and my freedoms and when I look around I am disgusted and saddened at what we have all lost. The senseless deaths, and the tormenting pain, as the world cries out in its own suffering. The sins of greed and lust has tapped our planet to the bone, as ignorance continues to lead the charge in this the so called “Age of Science”. If this new dawn truly is the age of awakening, our evolution of knowledge and consciousness, Why does people still cling onto old dogmas. Dogmas in which has fallen in the past, like the Greeks and Romans.
When science speaks, we chose not to listen, almost paranoid that the whole status quo will change. Terrified of the unknown, yet to proud and stubborn to see, even now their very way of life hangs in the balance. No it is not Armageddon, It is reality and it is your very life.
One can easily and rightfully debate a religion, but to contest their own divinity is to doubt your own existence. For what ever that spark of life that is within us all is known as, it gives to us a very important and often neglected gift. It was once said that when a man faces his own mortality it is then that he sees god. With so many different deities proclaimed how do we understand which is real and which has been a fabricated myth? Faith for centuries has taught you to believe in something unproven. Trust in an illusion even if the magic presented is more than just smoke and mirrors. The word faith now just conjures up untouchable dreams, forgotten is the word faith used for any practical matters. We all have relied too much on “out” side forces, 'A god watching over us'. We constantly view the world in a third person, picking from it like an apple from a tree, the memories in which to cherish or those that horrify us. Forgetting once again the essence of our breath. The meaning of life. The mystery in which all has sought after, but only few have conquered.
Playing with the cosmos in your hand while you lie
Can you see the future and what it will bring?
Can you hear the rain in the middle of spring?
Or ever danced with the mystics or sages?
Glanced upon one of the countless empty faces?
A world alone, Trapped out in space
a dot on a much larger canvas, A race performing suicide if we persist
Have you sang with the god's new or old?
Riding the tide, are your strings being pulled?
Do you fear no one more than yourself?
For your mind's a treasure chest of great wealth
Have you found the depths of your emotions, and the limits of your obsessions?
Reaching your dreams, when you first have nothing.
Are you dancing with the stars against the horizon?
While meditating within the center of the sun?
Have you ever traveled through a black hole, or peered deep into the soul?
Can you smile as you traverse the endless skies?
Wandering the void as your body dies
Can you hear all the beating hearts?
As you dance among the stars?
The Human Experience
The meaning of Life, the question is what is your purpose for living? This single question has haunted mankind since the birth of religion, science, and even human evolution of our consciousness. Through the years I have came to the conclusion that this reason for our existence was different for everyone, yet even now I've come to doubt my own answer, through theories of science. My mind and my eyes have expanded on what I once thought to be solid. Even my often morbid obsession with the dead, or rather the passing has all but pushed me down a rather one lane train of thought on this the mother of all questions. I have learned to be open minded and tolerate the insane and sane alike. My mind has lead me through dungeons and even gardens. As if like a child who finds the key to a locked room, I eagerly turn the latch. Only this time I will not see what is on the other side of this door until I too pass, and die.
The Human experience is more than a word, like the meaning of life it's even more than an expression. It is at the core of our very existence, to simplify how complex this experience is, It is love, it is Joy, happiness, excitement. It is the anger, and the rage. The often hidden lustful and even sinful thoughts we posses deep within our subconscious mind. Quiet simply it is the passion or even the unforgivable acts of cruelty itself.
For when even a blind man opens his eyes he feels the wind. Our emotions, thoughts and being are what makes up the complexity of the human experience. To live and to feel. To act and to think, so once again the question at hand. What is the meaning of life? The short answer is the life we live. To experience a miracle every second of the day whether that is a bad or even a wonderful moment, because that moment existed and nothing can change it now.
In a world of opposites, the yin and yang, love and hate, black and white, even life and death.
Where death becomes the opposite of your existence, your human experience and beyond that door only those who have gone before us truly know this opposite. Science has shown that through to our soul, is energy itself, to rationalize the meaning of death, only serves comfort to ourselves and does no justice to the dead. To believe and carry faith for our brothers and sisters taps into the once again ever complicated essence of the human experience. Our emotions, thoughts, and even our actions become the corner stone of our individual, biconnected personality. As that personality then carries the very meaning of our lives.
****Author's Note***
after about the 5th rewrite to this essay I decided to go in the direction I was most comfortable with, the flow of this sounds alot better then I had origanlly thought.
New Tangent and a New Poem
Who are you.
By: Matthew Wayne
Who are you to tell me what to do
Who are you, standing there without a clue
It is my life you try and demonize
my morals you try and criminalize
big business behind pseudo-slavery
few are awake to honor true bravery
the land of the free has been invaded
through a silver tongue you've all been persuaded
A nation of cowards, you watch your liberties dissolve
A nation of sheep, lining up in front of this wall
as the firing squad targets your mind
at birth you have no perception of time.
Brainwashed you listen but do not watch
through the smoke and mirrors your attention has been bought
believing in a lie, rather then face the truth
deceiving ourselves along with our youth
When will you stop blindly follow, without questioning?
When will you take notice, and start observing?
War becomes a tool used by the greedy
as poverty becomes an excuse for the needy
Who are you to tell me how to live?
Who are you to tell me what to give?
Sacrifice, lies, and broken words, you fall from the sky like dead birds
hopes, dreams, and inspiration, you try and take from me out of sheer desperation
I am free to my dieing breath, so give me liberty or give me death.
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Tangent – April 13, 2009
By: Matthew Wayne
I often think back, and wonder if I would still be alive during the colonial and much of the Victorian eras. My often outspoken words, would have surly condemned me to the guillotine. I have also always wanted to have been able to meet Edgar Allen Poe. One of my biggest inspirations for my writing. Just the thought of understanding how his and many other great poets and authors mind's worked still sends chills down my spine.
I could never step foot into a confessional booth in today's generation, No longer is your confession with just god but rather with that of another mortals opinion and conviction. If your hell is real then that is where I will reside for all of eternity when I die. I've been told this most of my growing years, Where I could call them judgmental and a sinner for casting that first stone, yet the truth of the matter is my mind does in fact taint my soul. To rationalize like any other human on this planet, I often point out that actions make the man not their thoughts but while thoughts can provoke intent. I walk a thin line and often feel like a virtual time bomb. A sane man knows the difference between what is right and what is wrong. Yet we as humans who are as flawed as I, are the authors of those rights and wrongs. As much as Intelligence borders insanity, where love becomes a easy mark for hate and anger, Peace will never be obtained when war is simply a difference of opinion, where no side wishes to back down.
I have murdered in my mind the hope of our survival as a species on this planet. After all it is in our nature to destroy ourselves, as conflict is at the very core of our soul.
“Addiction becomes the name of the game,
where cheap thrills are easy to obtain
In a time when morality has become obscured
clinging to lies, while doubting an expert is considered absurd”
It's Time to legalize While Ron paul slams the Drug Laws
Whether you are a smoker or not, for you to tell me how to live my life is disrespectful. I do not come into your house and mandate your exsistance, Drugs good or bad are a part of our society, Let the sovern entity that is our exsistance dictate what we ingest or where we travel with our mind. Regulating your morals is sudo-Slavery.
Journal Entry April 8th 2009
So many thoughts have been coursing through my mind, causing an almost stand still of any creative writing. Subjects I do have ideas about writing are constantly pestering me, with the aid of Insomnia , The worst part about it, even my Journal no longer helps make any sense out of what has become a mad circus that is in my head. I am also assuming that part of my defenisve nature against this onslaught is an increased lazyness, a Mental apathy as it were. If this continues my whole writing process may be in danger or could shift, or even worse, lose interest in writing all together, Another hidden fear of mine manifested in a nightmare. I might have to take a break, maybe look for another creative outlet, or until my mental apathy ends.
"Distrust floats in a sea of snakes,
serpents all biting just to see what they can take."
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Freelance Artists requested
With the completion of my two books, I am in dire need to find a freelance Artist (as am in no finacial situtation to compensate for pay) to help design the cover for these two books, I will of course give all credit to the art displayed within the books. If there is anyone interested you can email me at waynecanning@hotmail.com in the subject line put "Freelance artist requested" so that I know you are looking for the job.
Thank you in advance,
Matthew Wayne
Thank you in advance,
Matthew Wayne
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